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About fenifuego

Just trying to make sense of myself and the world.


“I wasn’t always a Phoenix, soaring high
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Re-membrance of Self

Light returns I raise my arms to greet Him Dancing sun-wise Singing soul songs Darkness tried to swallow me Despair pulled at my heart Death called out from the stormy seas How was I not dashed upon the rocks? In … Continue reading

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“I am Phoenix, child of Light.” That’s what I used to repeat over and over to myself when I was young and suicidal. I said it when I needed, desperately, to remember that I was stronger than my circumstances. Tonight, … Continue reading

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Sometimes I really miss my mom

I wish I had my mother’s faith That never seemed to waiver All the obstacles she had to face She thanked God for each new day And when her health failed and she lay dying She asked Her Father to … Continue reading

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Shattered In My Soul

It’s that deep deep sorrow And you can’t even lift your eyes Every moment feels like you’re moving through water And it’s hard to breathe Struggling to take in air but you’re only taking on more water You’re drowning And … Continue reading

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After the Grand Jury

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Song of the Wandering Phoenix

“I went out to the hazel wood, because a fire was in my head…”-The Song of the Wandering Aengus by William Butler Yeats When I wrote “Forever Always Until” it came to me as a song. I had just come from a … Continue reading

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